Wednesday, February 25, 2009

You know your life sucks when you find yourself reaching for the Classifieds everyday

As I was finishing up an email that would accompany my resume to yet another prospective employer, I found that I hesitated as I started to move the cursor toward 'send'. I re-read the words that I had typed, scanning through for any mistakes. I checked that I had, indeed, remembered to attch the file. But still, there was that distinct wavering.

I realised that greater than the dread of hitting a dead end yet again, I was afraid of what might happen if I actually got the job.

There is that fear of not being up to par, of being crap at what you do. Back in school, you have that invisible net - which is the rationale that you're 'merely a student' - in case you mess up.
But I don't have that anymore.

That said, I really wouldn't mind working right now (even though I know I'm gonna regret saying that from the first sounds of the alarm on that first day). But life is getting quite boring, and everyone seems to be caught up in their own lives anyway. So what the hell. Besides, shopping is an expensive habit.

Posted by stash at 11:33 AM