Sunday, February 22, 2009

of emo entries & embarrassing escapades

I am going to try to refrain from sharing too much here, even though i find it so much easier to communicate my feelings through static text rather than confide in a living person. I guess the ease with which one can pour their feelings out on their blogs is due to the lack of a physical audience. It's pretty convenient to vent your frustrations in the lone presence of an inanimate object such as your computer.

But no. I am quite done with that thankyouverymuch. I hate the thought of strangers reading my entries and judging me purely based on that. I'd very much hate for people to read what I write, especially the negative entries, and define me within those parameters. I hate people telling me to "relax" or "take it easy" as though their saying that will magically make everything well again. Saying that probably makes me sound crankly, but you know it's true! Those are just weak placatory words used for the sake of putting your two cents in, no?

That said, I don't know exactly who reads what I write, and neither do I have any control over it. What I have control over, however, is what I decide to include when I hit 'Publish'.

Yet, I don't think I could give up blogging. For now at least, I suppose it does serve as a suitable medium for self-indulgent ranting.

Going off on a tangent here, but I quite dislike the word 'blog' and its variations (i.e. 'blogger'. 'blogging', etc). I don't like the way it sounds or the way it looks. Could quite possibly be because it's discussed so rampantly now, that the word itself has become such a tired cliche.
But it's an ugly word to begin with.

Don't mind me. I'm just idiosyncratic.

Posted by stash at 8:41 AM